Rock Bottom !

                                                          So there you are , caught between a rock and a hard place , getting absolutely nowhere . You summon up all your concentration , you drive yourself on through a complicated maze of love , hate and opportunity , but to no avail . You've come to the end of your tether , you've exhausted all possibility of a reprieve from this patently obvious eventuality , you have reached rock bottom . Where do you go from here ? Who is going to help you now , you have exchanged any semblance of normality for just one shot of drink that you just know has always been your downfall and always will . You're quite simply lost .
                                                         You ask yourself through a misty haze you call sobriety , who is to blame for all of this . Why am I here and not enjoying the family you know cares for you , but who too have learned that assisting you in any shape or form is so wasteful of effort and their time . You have worn out your welcome everywhere , when someone you know sees you they cross the street and turn their heads the other way . This is my legacy you say to yourself , this is what I am going to be remembered for . Your children are hating you , but loving you if that makes sense . You have embarrassed them too many times in front of friends and colleagues , and missing them is killing you as well as the drink .
                                                        This is the life of so many people out there . We may even know them , and they may be so secretive about their addictions , be it drink or drugs , that sometimes you are completely unaware of what's really happening in their lives . Wives and children are not going to advertise their plight . They are not going to share this stigma of an addiction publicly , so they just suffer in silence until the worst comes to the worst and they have no other option than to either help or isolate the addict . The problem with trying to help someone like that , is that they don't always want to admit their addiction , and wave help off , as if its an intrusion on their privacy .But the time will come when admission will be their only hope . You see denial is a terrible thing with any form of addict , it prevents getting better , and more importantly it prevents progress .
                                                        This is just a birds eye view of a subject that is so savage and destroying , that thinking about it can be very uncomfortable . I just would like to say , that anyone in this particular situation needs help , and understanding , but unfortunately both of these things will probably come from outside of the family . From someone who's objective and unforgiving , unlike family members .