THE HENWATCH BLOG

                                                              Sometimes , there's this overwhelming silence that goes round in my head . It's so powerful at times it can be truly deafening . Where it comes from is anybody's guess . I have just learned to handle it's effect if any , and deal with it accordingly .                                                               You see having conversations with yourself , I suppose can do this to you . And then there comes the silence . That truly deafening hole that spreads bigger and bigger the more you either try to escape it , or worse still , confront it .                                                               What do you say to something that is all powerful , all knowing , and never considers your feelings ? How do you approach something that is not to be understood physically , or even understood mentally ? Its the ultimate question I have to ask myself . Do I take its importance seriously , or do I simply

                                                                  So there you are , after experiencing a pretty dramatic event and an ambulance having to be called . You're not quite sure what the fuck is going on , but you just know you're on your back , and you're being rapidly attended to by two people in whites and covid masks . The ambulance is doing at least 100 , getting round corners is pretty scary never mind what's happening inside your body . All you now know is that you collapsed , having experienced pains in your arm and chest . No one 's sayin a word , your wife/partner couldn't accompany you due to covid restrictions , so you've now got the added stress of worrying about them .If they do try and follow you to the hospital there is no guarantee that they will be allowed to stay . What a fuck up this is , and all you were doin was havin a cup of tea in the kitchen , without biscuits or cakes I need add . Like how is this goin to get better ? Ho