Learning to Re-Adapt ! An Obvious Solution !

                                                                          Be warned , I have no idea where this is gonna go , and I don't even care . I have reached that time in my life where considering what is acceptable to others , doesn't really do it for me any more . You see those days of minding your p's and q's has long since left my understanding of how things should be . Something is either right or it is wrong . To be pursued , or ignored at all costs . I have considered those grey areas where nothing is ever decided , and ultimately are always put on hold , until such time as someone else deems it fit for general consumption .You have to protect others emotions don't you ? You have to forsake truth for some makey up version of it haven't you ? . These are the things and positions in life I am not at all happy with .
                                                                         When something happens to you in life be it good or bad , you either learn from it or you carry on being the that certain individual who will never know change , and will never experience just how liberating change can be . You will ponder your next move as if its some really important strategic move in a game of chess . You will analyze it so much , that what started out as a quite ordinary problem , with a quite ordinary solution , has just become some extremely difficult mathematical equation , worthy of Albert Einstein himself . You will move yourself into a corner , where you will never see the exit door . And this will be all of your own doing . I mean no one else told you to adapt that position . It wasn't a case of life or death was it ? No that proverbial molehill has just altered its shape and become one big motherf...... mountain .
                                                                        Now normally I have a very special place in my heart for mountains and such . But that's where it ends , in my heart . To place that mountain and all of its cavities and ledges , and it sheer size to the confines of your head can be one disastrous mistake . You see your head was not meant for such difficulty . Yes things can get tricky at times , but to voluntarily choose to create your own brand of world war 3 in your head , methinks it not a very good idea .
                                                                        I have learned that dwelling in the past is one sure way to prevent yourself moving forward . The past is an unchanging episode in your life . Now what does episode mean ? It simply means its a little slice


of the story , BUT not all of it . You can make it all of the story by acting out , just like the movie Groundhog Day , if that suits you . But just like the movie , you'll never really get anywhere . When you wake up every morning , nothing will have changed , you'll always be back right where you started .
                                                                       If you adapt to this sort of lifestyle , I would recommend doing it on your own .Being in any sort of relationship would not be healthy , as you will have encouraged someone else , who is innocent in all of this , to follow you just because they either like , or love you . It seems a little unfair if you ask me . Thundering through life as if its a means to an end is definitely not the way to go . Its really time to re-invent yourself . Re-adapt if you will . There will be no trophies for your success in this . There will be no celebrity to wish you all the best in your transition . But there will be someone who may just benefit from all of this . And that someone will definitely be you !