THE HENWATCH BLOG

                                                              Sometimes , there's this overwhelming silence that goes round in my head . It's so powerful at times it can be truly deafening . Where it comes from is anybody's guess . I have just learned to handle it's effect if any , and deal with it accordingly .                                                               You see having conversations with yourself , I suppose can do this to you . And then there comes the silence . That truly deafening hole that spreads bigger and bigger the more you either try to escape it , or worse still , confront it .                                                               What do you say to something that is all powerful , all knowing , and never considers your feelings ? How do you approach something that is not to be understood physically , or even understood mentally ? Its the ultimate question I have to ask myself . Do I take its importance seriously , or do I simply

                                                                  So there you are , after experiencing a pretty dramatic event and an ambulance having to be called . You're not quite sure what the fuck is going on , but you just know you're on your back , and you're being rapidly attended to by two people in whites and covid masks . The ambulance is doing at least 100 , getting round corners is pretty scary never mind what's happening inside your body . All you now know is that you collapsed , having experienced pains in your arm and chest . No one 's sayin a word , your wife/partner couldn't accompany you due to covid restrictions , so you've now got the added stress of worrying about them .If they do try and follow you to the hospital there is no guarantee that they will be allowed to stay . What a fuck up this is , and all you were doin was havin a cup of tea in the kitchen , without biscuits or cakes I need add . Like how is this goin to get better ? Ho

                                                                    In the huge scheme of things we live our lives in a way that has been somehow mapped out for us .  We wake every day and do the things that are expected to be done by others , but mostly by ourselves . Most of the time we are pleased by our efforts , and sometimes we just let ourselves down . And that's okay too , because we're not as perfect as we would like to be , or as others might expect us to be . We are as good as we want ourselves to be , or as we hope ourselves to be .                                                                    Now at this time of year I tend to get a little sentimental about stuff . You know what I'm talking about ? Family , the future , the dog and I suppose a little about our own mortality . The rest of the year seemingly it simply doesn't seem to matter . Christmas and even more importantly the change over from one year to another is so deep in our character and

                                                                        If someone clutches at straws , perhaps that is all they have to hold on to . If someone never sees the light in an angel's eyes , perhaps they were never really looking that well anyway . When someone has dreamed endlessly about escaping something that can only be described as a living nightmare , perhaps that nightmare is actually their truest reality . All of these situations , be they real or just a figment of my imagination , or someone else's, can be a perfectly normal existence for the people involved . Perhaps even created by themselves without their knowledge or consent , and accepted as their own version of some sort of psychotic normality .                                                                        Its wasted on me how this sort of thing can actually happen . Be it a long lost memory of childhood that haunts someone . No matter the reason or excuse , for some this is an every day oc

                                                                             It appears that its that time of year again . You're right , I am going to annoy you with some Henwatch Logic and seasonal Pandemic related bits & bobs I would like to share . That's me all over sharing as if it had gone out of fashion . You see when I get the urge to write and share , sometimes it can be enlightening , then sometimes it can be maybe a bit boring and worthless . Don't ask me how this is going to pan out , because just like you I have no fucking idea!                                                                              Ok it's Christmas , peace and good will to Everybody ! Did you notice how I highlighted Everybody ? There's a good reason for that which will be revealed soon enough . Now all of my friends , and there's hundreds of thousands of them around the globe who hang on my every word , I would like to wish them all the best for the season that's in

                                                                           It's so hard to just accept things at face value . I am a prime example of how face value will never really work . You see when you invest a lot of your time in questioning everything , from the simple workings of a cheese grater , to the secrets of the universe , you can easily be overwhelmed by the simplest of representations .                                                                          You see no matter what or who is introduced to you , some sort of representation is always needed just to tickle your interest buds . If things were just placed in front of you for your perusal without any sort of explanation or representation , nobody would ever get anywhere in a very short space of time . So that is why dressing something up , no matter how simple it is , will always benefit the piece being represented . So once we get all of the make up , and design out of the way , the piece is ready to b

                                The time has come for my wife & I to consciously uncouple from everything Coronavirus ! It wasn't a difficult decision , in fact it was made very simple when you take into account the events that moved us both in that direction .                                                           We have both decided that it is better to live like you're living , than live like you are dying . We will abide by all of the protocols that are in place , but we will avail of every opportunity to step outside of it as we see fit !                                                              We both understand how serious this Coronaviorus is ? But you see what I don't understand is why this danger is not very high on some government officials list of priorities . It's like they're collectively telling us , we know something you don't . Or why should we not gather together in groups of 80 people or more , who is going to know ? These are