THE HENWATCH BLOG

                                                                    It's so hard to think of mortality without thinking firstly of yourself , and really what it means to you . Everyone takes mortality for granted , its like well I am still alive therefore it doesn't really effect me , and therefore I won't want to think about it . Selfish maybe ? Inconsiderate possibly ? Human nature absolutely ! And final so very very definitely !                                                                    Today my wife's sister said goodbye to her only son Phillip .Devastated is a word that is frequently used to describe all sorts of feelings in relation to our own emotions and sometimes the lack of them . But today I seen devastation firsthand , and there was never any thought of over exaggeration in the emotions and tears that were shed today .                                                                    I didn't know Phillip that well , and maybe that was my los

                                                                      Ain't it strange how having done all of your tutoring and teaching in relation to bringing up children , that never , not one day could you say to yourself okay that's the end of that and take the rest that you so seriously deserve . You see , in your heart of hearts you understand that the only way you're going to relinquish that responsibility is when you're out of breath and you've forgotten how to resume .                                                                       Having been in this position for forty three years , you've kinda earned yourself an opinion when it comes to these things . But unfortunately some parents refuse to exercise that opinion , and then they wonder why things seem to get a little confused . I wonder if you , the reader can relate to this ? Have you even got an opinion ? I sometimes wonder do you even care at all ?                                        

                                                                Now normally I have an idea where one of my blogs is going to go . Normally there would be a subject that has either made me happy or in some instances , made me mad . This particular blog has no sub text . It has no direction I can think of . And it certainly has no one issue that I want to address . So have patience and bear with me and lets just see where this goes okay ? Oh and by the way , if something sounds or feels familiar , don't be getting yourself thinking that it's about you , ITS NOT !                                            Once upon a time in my mind , things had structure , things had shape and reason , and now all I can see is utter confusion and hostility . Confusion , because literally no one knows what they are doing or why they are doing it any more . Hostility because you can't even ask someone a simple question , and down your throat they go .  Everything these days has to be done a

                                                                       Its hardly surprising that when you have just about settled with a particular level of calm in the Universe , something happens to add to the decay . I know that maybe I am being a little naive when I say things like this , but for once just once you think to yourself that you are pretty happy with the way things are .                                                                       When these type of events happen , its very easy to lull yourself into a little false sense of security . I mean no one wants to hear bad news . No one wants to be faced with change in their all too perfect little bubbles do they ? It's so much easier to just stand still than to either go backwards , or forwards . You see standing still is safe . Standing still is easy . And of course standing still means you never have to deal with new found difficulties .                                                                      

                                                             Throughout my life I have always kinda wanted to have some sort of hold on what goes on around me . You should probably be able to identify with what I am going to write . Or maybe not , either way it should hopefully provoke you into having an opinion . That when you get old enough and hopefully wise enough , you can decide confidently what path you should take in dealing with a particular problem .                                                               You see I can tend to oversimplify things , and maybe that's the root cause of my problem . For instance . If someone has a broken leg it should be fixed and reset in a particular manner . Yes ? If someone is having a bad time of it in school , I expect said problem to be dealt with by the appropriate channels . Yes ?  That if a doctor has told me I have terminal cancer , and I should start getting my shit in order , I would tend to believe him simply because tha

                                                                        Today's a good day ! The sun is shining , I have a chance to sit alone with my thoughts , and write them down . I don't get this opportunity often , so when I do I would normally read or watch a football match . But today is different . Today I am in conversation with myself , and I am having a discussion on whether it is right to talk to oneself , or is it just another idiosyncrasy that speaks to me every so often ?                                                                         Sometimes it's kinda okay to do this sort of thing . But then sometimes it can be a very bad idea . Mostly it depends upon your mood at any given time . You see a lot of our problems in life , well mine anyway , is that I tend to assume that other people feel and understand things the same way that I do .Not a very bright idea I have learned . You see just because I can deal with something , doesn't necessarily me