THE HENWATCH BLOG

                                                              Sometimes , there's this overwhelming silence that goes round in my head . It's so powerful at times it can be truly deafening . Where it comes from is anybody's guess . I have just learned to handle it's effect if any , and deal with it accordingly .                                                               You see having conversations with yourself , I suppose can do this to you . And then there comes the silence . That truly deafening hole that spreads bigger and bigger the more you either try to escape it , or worse still , confront it .                     ...

                                                                  So there you are , after experiencing a pretty dramatic event and an ambulance having to be called . You're not quite sure what the fuck is going on , but you just know you're on your back , and you're being rapidly attended to by two people in whites and covid masks . The ambulance is doing at least 100 , getting round corners is pretty scary never mind what's happening inside your body . All you now know is that you collapsed , having experienced pains in your arm and chest . No one 's sayin a word , your wife/partner couldn't accompany you due to covid restrictions , so you've now got the added stress of worrying about them .If they do try and follow you to the hospital there is no guarantee that they will be allowed to stay . What a fuck up this is , and a...

                                                                    In the huge scheme of things we live our lives in a way that has been somehow mapped out for us .  We wake every day and do the things that are expected to be done by others , but mostly by ourselves . Most of the time we are pleased by our efforts , and sometimes we just let ourselves down . And that's okay too , because we're not as perfect as we would like to be , or as others might expect us to be . We are as good as we want ourselves to be , or as we hope ourselves to be .                                                                    Now at this time of year I tend to...

                                                                        If someone clutches at straws , perhaps that is all they have to hold on to . If someone never sees the light in an angel's eyes , perhaps they were never really looking that well anyway . When someone has dreamed endlessly about escaping something that can only be described as a living nightmare , perhaps that nightmare is actually their truest reality . All of these situations , be they real or just a figment of my imagination , or someone else's, can be a perfectly normal existence for the people involved . Perhaps even created by themselves without their knowledge or consent , and accepted as their own version of some sort of psychotic normality .                         ...

                                                                             It appears that its that time of year again . You're right , I am going to annoy you with some Henwatch Logic and seasonal Pandemic related bits & bobs I would like to share . That's me all over sharing as if it had gone out of fashion . You see when I get the urge to write and share , sometimes it can be enlightening , then sometimes it can be maybe a bit boring and worthless . Don't ask me how this is going to pan out , because just like you I have no fucking idea!                                                                         ...

                                                                           It's so hard to just accept things at face value . I am a prime example of how face value will never really work . You see when you invest a lot of your time in questioning everything , from the simple workings of a cheese grater , to the secrets of the universe , you can easily be overwhelmed by the simplest of representations .                                      ...