Losing Sight of the Objective !

                                                                           Maybe I have lost sight in what the objective really was . Maybe I was fooled into believing that if something was said properly and evenly , that the majority of  people couldn't fail to understand exactly what I was saying . Or maybe because I was and still am a little outspoken at times , you tend to dismiss where the meaning comes from , and why .
                                                                          You look at the ceiling while trying to go off to sleep and wonder , what if any , has the depth  of meaning that will fill your appetite for wanting to address a particular subject . Where is the subject matter that gives you a certain feeling of importance ? Why does it always have to be filled with annoyance and hope for a better result ? Why can't things remain simple and continuous ? Not that I have a problem with breaks in flow , or hiccups that tend to send you off in the wrong direction . I keep telling myself these are there simply to test your patience and resolve , and quite frankly I have become impatient , and my resolve is at boiling point .
                                                                           Saying things repetitively is a sure sign that you are either speaking too low , or that your audience is simply not listening to you .Maybe if I start shouting it will have a better impact and maybe someone will get the message . But to be honest I won't hold my breath .When you have taught yourself that living in your own personal bubble , is a way to protect you from hurt and harm , it doesn't take that long for you to distort the very meaning of the truth . It actually distorts the very essence of whats real and whats unreal .
                                                                            The need for total and complete acceptance is kinda like a drug . The more acceptance that you require and the amount you receive will never ever be enough . You have to be at complete peace with yourself , if you are to be the person you started out being . You will lose all  of your identity if you are not careful in protecting that which is so very important , and makes you the individual everyone used to know . I understand that we can all try to re invent ourselves , but what if you don't need to re invent yourself , and what if by doing so you are doing yourself irreparable harm . What if the loss of that which is you , will never be seen again . People toy with their personalities with great risk attached . More than they will ever know or understand .
                                                                            There is no lesson to be learned . There is no right way to approach things . You will always have your way and I will always have mine . It doesn't mean that we can't agree . It simply means there is more to be had from examining a stance , than from taking one .